Welcome to my life!

Alright! So this happened nearly about 3 weeks ago (3 weeks on Saturday c:!), butttt.. I got a boyfriend :D!

I am only 13, so yeah, I am a bit young, but I really do like this boy (Danny is his name. He's pretty quirky, but is very nice, sweet, and funny. We both are very alike and we have many things in common :D.)

So. Danny's mom went away camping with his cute little sister, just leaving him and his dad home. His mom is against bloody video games, but his dad isn't, so we were both able to finally play gears of war together. While playing this, my mom told me (well, more like forced me, I'm shy.) to ask him out to go to a local ice cream place. Of course, him being Daniel, he said yes and was really happy.


My mom knew about my crush, and we were both certain he liked me- so she told me a little afterwards that I would tell him that I like him. Of course, I was really pissed off and nervous. Well, I decided to do what my mom said because, cmon, I need some balls. I've liked him for a while, and he seemed like he really did have a crush on me (was 95% sure). So, as we were eating icecream (at the kiddy table, of course.), my mom said she had to "make a phone call", therefore saying I should tell him.

I chickened out.

A few minutes later, my mom came back out, and had to make another "phone call" after that. This time, I grew steel balls and decided to do my duty. And I did. I'm sure I was blushing hard when I did, and I'm sure my icecream was melting as well, but I did. And he told me that he liked me too (YESS!), but he never wanted to tell me because it could have destroyed our friendship, which is pretty close. I told Danny that even if I didn't like him back and he told me, I would still be friends with him anyways. And that I also wouldn't treat him like his ex Ally did (who dumped him because he was too "awkward" and "weird" -.-). Of course, us being innocent, we didn't suck eachothers faces. We just hugged c:.

He was so relieved the rest of the night and was very giggly, even more than usual. Over all, that was probably one of the best nights I ever had.

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So, back into the future. We're still bf and gf, no kisses (he tried to kiss my cheek, but, umm.. well, I didn't even notice he did before he got out of the car and ran to his house.) which is fine, and we're always hugging now. Over all, it's going really well, but my low self esteem is getting in the way. I almost feel.. well, it's hard to explain.. but.... umm... awkward to talk to him in public. Like he may get embarrassed that he is talking to me in public (which is really ridiculous, I know that.). Meanwhile, he's the one telling me he misses me.

On weekends.

*facepalm*

But in all serious-ness business, this is going really well. I just need to get over my weird fears n' crap.

How's it going for the rest of you?

Cats!

Doesn't matter how many, what matters is the quality of the ones you have. I have about 5-10, but I'd do just find with 3 great ones :)

My grades o_o. Only pre-algebra, though. I'm close to failing, around a 71.

I do this ALL the time U:. Today, I accidentally told my friend that my dad used to be a drunk..

I don't think my momma would be too happy if she heard that I did (this friend is also kind of not too trustworthy..)

Well, I guess I'll say that he used to be a party animal when he was younger and I got confused with that and a drunk. :l

Anyways, random update if anyone cares. I got rid of my friend Michelle. I feel a bit guilty, but hell, if all of her past friends "abandoned" her, I'd think she'd learn why sometime soon.

How are you guys? :)

Pros:
We've become more smart
helps humans keep in touch

cons:
cyberbullying
becoming anti-social
becoming over-weight
worsens our vision
creates unnecessary drama in our lives
we can't lie with out it

Ugh. So, I'm sorry, but this post isn't really gonna be too happy. The past month, my life has been fucking FILLED to the rim with stress.

Let us start off with my lovely friend Michelle. We became friends because I heard from another friend of mine that she likes anime and draws in manga style, so we bonded through an anime called Hetalia. Well.

Turns out, she was cool at first, but then she started grabbing my sleeves, holding on my backpack to "steal energy", and wouldn't let me talk to ANYONE else, and would interrupt if I did so. In the end, my mom had to talk to her. The whole taking energy and grabbing my sleeves thing stopped.

But the no-talking-to-anyone-else-thing didn't. I gave her a FUCKING SECOND CHANCE, and here she goes, wasting it. I'm sorry, Michelle, but your jokes are horrible. I'm sorry that all your friends have "abandoned you", but you should've figured out why or at least even have tried to fix your self (which, yes, means taking a shower every other day. I'm sorry, but you honestly smell like old socks.)

I'm tired of your constant talk of anime, Korean dramas, and romance shows. I want to be outgoing and not be a weeaboo/otaku (obsessed with anime). I want to TALK to my crush, I'm really sorry about that.

Anyways, back to the present (sorry for this messy rant :P). My mom is talking to the guidance person at my school to move my seats in a few classes away from her and solve the problem. I've only been moved away from her in one class and it still hasn't been solved, but hey, I'll give the dude some time to fix it.

#2: My ocd, add, 16 year old brother is growing an even more larger dick, which is leading him to acting annoying as hell. He won't stop interrupting anyone in his family when they're talking. He shouts randomly, plays guitar as loudly as he can, and rages on the xbox when he dies. He denies he will be fat, even though he eats calorie-induced snacks every 30 minutes and doesn't bmx anymore. When he's driving and my mom's guiding him, they get into a fight because he believes he's doing the right thing when he isn't. Along with this, he's lying about how often he is smoking and is failing 3 classes. He doesn't care anymore. I'm frightened for my brother's future.

#3 My mom and dad don't love each other anymore. They used to be so close.. it's been going on for a year or two now, but it's eating at me a bit more I guess. And you wanna know the ridiculous reason WHY this happened? My mom didn't wanna have quickies in the bathroom when we were in the living room or awake, and didn't like that he was grabbing her crotch in front of us. So he got pissed off at her and does nothing romantic with her anymore. Only kisses her (an airkiss) when he goes to bed, never holds hands with her. They just act like.. roommates now.

My dad.. he's just a douchebag. He's a nice father, but a douchebag in real life. He ocds about fishing, never lets us watch the tv, ignores my mom, complains about his job constantly, and tries too hard to be funny. He hates gays, blacks, and mexicans with a passion, but denies totally that he's racist or prejudice. If I turned out to be a lesbian, he'd porbably never think of me the same ever again.

Along with this, our house is a trash (and not like a few papers here, a few there. It's HORRIBLE: Wrappers everywhere, forgotten cups on almost every table, my brothers old socks on the floor, papers half covering the whole coffee table, and bins full of papers and food to hide from my brother), and my dad denies (as usual) that he does anything wrong, and can't clean the house because he works.

Is THAT YOUR FUCKING EXCUSE?!

No. IT'S because you've always had someone to clean up for you. Your mom cleaned your room everyday when you wouldn't do it, and now your wife is doing it. My brother won't even join in either, that little selfish fucker. And the best part is:

WE WON'T EVEN MOVE! He's lived in this town ever since he was born, and ever since me and david were born, rich people came in and we've been emotionally hurt at school. He said we would move when my mom was pregnant with me if she had a girl.

Fucking asshole. He makes so many promises (we're gonna go to hawaii! Three years later, I've only been on a vacation in my whole 13 years.), and never accepts them.

And now he's finally said that we're never gonna move. My mom wants to divorce him and said she'll wait till David's out of the house and I'm 18. But now she said she may not be able to wait so long (she was also heavily abused among her deceased brother as a child, and now she's dealing with more: emotional neglect, AKA ABUSE).

Not to mention my mom has to deal with his Alzheimers induced grandpa. Keyword: HIS. She used to (and will have to eventually, since my dad's family sucks asshole.) go there almost every day of the week for about 3 hours to force him to take his pills. He'd go there... hmm, 3 times a week if lucky? He would usually skip 2 days of that or so, leaving her to go there more than she was told to do.

And, my dad also has no manners. My mom bought him a laptop for his birthday that was around 400 bucks (me and my brother said not to do it, but stupid her did.) for him, and I had to REMIND him to say thanks.

Great, now I'm crying. Bye.

Although he's extremely annoying, Ellis.

"I ever tell you 'bout tha' time me an' Keith..."
"Holy shit guys.. KIDDEHLAND!"
"Horses are fur ridin' not fur eatin', Nick :l."

Confusing: it's full of anxiety, perverted thoughts, and unneeded drama. And the only thing I like from one of these three things is the perverted thoughts.

Too much.